I was almost exhausted but so very happy admiring one of my shirts that had no wrinkle left! I looked at this shirt very pleased I owned such a beautiful piece of clothing that now looked perfect and it could proudly represent me! But at that point I realized I have ironed almost half of my closet..and it suddenly got me thinking..I was so happy to see how well and nice everything looked now!

I find so much pleasure in organizing things, seeing them stored in the right places or just  working properly..it gives me the feeling that..everything is in control, everything is fine..no chaos going on! And I feel great! I can relax..things are fine! But..I would never admit I had anything to do with the perfectionist world..that word drives me nuts! I’m not one of them, don’t want to be! (I know it’s pretty much impossible, so I’m saving some stress and energy to use on something else). Still..that was exactly the thought that came to my mind..am I a perfectionist? Of course the response came within seconds: no way! But..if I was..what is so wrong with that? Perfect is one of the attributes of God, is it wrong to aim for that?

Well..I strongly believe it is not! I believe we are actually expected to do so, as in to try our best and even if we don’t get things perfect..we do them really well, and we can enjoy the rewards of that. What I am really repulsive of is actually the “control freak” situation. (PLEASE DON’T TRY IT AT HOME..OR ANYWHERE ELSE, FOR YOUR OWN SAKE AND FOR EVERYBODY ELSE’S) It is just sad, and I do see it at work and in everyday life of people around me. People stressing out for something breaking down or for something that was misplaced and seems to be lost for a moment, and acting like it was the end of the world. OH MY…A MISTACKE! I see them being not able to focus on anything else after that…after all, they have made a mistake. And everything needs to be done in a very extremely and totally perfect way! And there is no other way! I am not judging. Like many other things, I have tried it too. My conclusion: not working! I find myself struggling with it sometimes still. None of us like to be wrong, and for some, it is actually very difficult to admit somebody knows it better than we do. Our ego gets in great pain that moment!  BUT…we can’t go all on the other side and not even trying, because we could go wrong either! So..is there a solution?

I do believe we are to aim high. I believe we are to have high expectations and constantly push ourselves towards the goals we have. We are to be strong, determined and not to give up easily. And yes, to strive for perfect! But to always remember we are not to “lean on our own understanding”. We will never be perfect, we are just not made that way. But being built in His image, we have that desire in our hearts. And there will be a day we will enjoy that…but until then, let’s allow ourselves to enjoy life and it’s little imperfections!